A friend just called to tell me Seth is out to dinner, at almost 10pm, with his new girlfriend or whatever she is. I cant seem to stop crying...my god, it breaks my heart. Here I am, at home...pregnant, caring for our other two kids, while he is running the roads & having dinner with another chick. I feel so sick...like I could puke my guts out...
There's nothing to say or do to make this better...I just have to suffer through it, and hope for a better day sometime soon. How miserable...its the worst feeling EVER. Ive never felt so sad, and like my world is just crashing down...
He was supposed to be mine, ours. He was supposed to be a husband, and a dad. He should have been home that time of night, with his wife. But instead, he is on a 'date'...with someone else. I wish there was anything at all someone could say to me right now to make this feel better, but theres just not. He is ripping my heart out...and all I can do is sit around & take it.
In the daytime, Im pretty much fine. The kids keep me SO busy, I dont have time to be too sad. But at night, after they are in bed, I just usually go to sleep early because I dont want to be up by myself, to think about everything. It rips me apart. And tonight I was up watching American Idol & got a phone call...saying Seth was out to dinner with his little woman. I feel...lost. I almost feel like I cant even breathe right now, like Im suffocating. I just want to go to sleep, and wake up to a new day. I want to hug my little Hannah, and hear her teeny voice making me feel better. I cant cry in front of Hailey, I dont want her to see that, but Hannah doesnt really get it...she will just pat me & tell me its okay...which is what I really need right now.
I still cant even believe this is happening...
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