I have such extreme high's & such extreme low's...I hate that. Today is definitely a low. I feel just plain depressed today. I dont want to do anything but lay around, and I cant exactly do that. I feel so overwhelmed by everything right now. Maybe its because Seth got his own house, that has really made me feel some crappy feelings. I just feel...sad I guess. I dont know. Just one more step that makes this all real. It has me stressed out, I need a job FAST and I just cant find one quick enough...besides working at McDonalds or something, which I just cant do to myself.
The kids are loud & extra fiesty today, its wearing me out. I want something so simple as a bath, without hearing kids scream at each other. I want to be able to make food for THEM without Hannah getting into everything I dont want her getting into. I want time to just sit & cry if I need to...and believe me, I do need to.
I keep trying to remind myself that all these struggles are temporary. This will pass. I will start to feel better, and things will get better for us. It just cant happen fast enough. Im losing my mind today...
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