Feeling weird today...

I hate when I have a weird mood going on & I put my finger on it. I just feel...off today. I think it might be a combination of ALOT of things I have going through my head at one time. Its like I have alot to think about, but not enough time. My thoughts start to jumble & I dont get anything accomplished. Got some things having to do with Hailey on my mind, got some things having to do with Seth on my mind, some general things, some Hannah things, some pet things, some house things, just so many 'things' going through my head today for some reason.

Its putting me in a super weird mood.

I need to get up & get ready to go to our playdate, and I LOVE seeing our friends, but I feel like I am lacking motivation. I dont feel very friendly today...I dont know. I feel like I want to get alot of things off my chest but no one to tell them to. I wish I kept a journal, like I always used to, but I dont feel safe keeping something like that anymore. When I lived alone, it wasnt a big deal, but Im way too paranoid someone will find it & snoop...and when I am sharing my most personal thoughts, I dont want anyone to know them.

I just need to make myself get dressed, maybe I will feel better.

I just love life.

Seriously, I enjoy life so much...to the point where I cant stand to be around people who are always complaining & griping about every...little...thing. Drives me nuts, and its such a downer.

Happiness is a conscious choice. Its not luck, you have to CHOOSE to enjoy life, and I have chosen that. It doesnt matter what I do each day, I enjoy it. I enjoy it if we have a million places to go. I enjoy it if we stay in jammies all day. I enjoy going to work even. I enjoy just driving in the car on a summer night. I enjoy watching tv, or playing with the girls or just anything. Its so wonderful. I wasnt always that way, but I got to the point where I wanted to just be happy. And I am. If the day doesnt go as planned, I smile & go on, thinking of a different way to enjoy it. I dont get worked up over the small things anymore. I genuinely enjoy being alive, and it's wonderful :)

I wish more people could learn to live their life happier...so many people are so down, and negative. I feel so bad for them. Im all the time hearing people gripe & complain about being 'bored', and thats something I will never understand. Especially for parents. I havent had time to be bored in YEARS! There's ALWAYS something to be doing, even if its just enjoying a show on tv. I find only boring people get 'bored' all the time. People need to learn to entertain themselves & stop expecting the world to do it for them.

I wish I could teach people how to be happy, and enjoy each day. So many people just...dont...and its such a sad way to live. We arent here forever, and I am going to enjoy the time I have here.

I just love my zest for life, I really do. Im so much more laid back than I used to be, so easy-going. I just dont get all stressed out over things. If no one is dying or seriously injured, Im like 'whatever', and its SO refreshing.

I just wish I could spread my happiness onto other people.